I already lost her..

.. d q alm qng anung anung nangy2ri skin, pkirmdm q my mli skin.. bkt mgk iba ang nsa icp kesa s nr2mdmn.. ilng beses q n dn tinnung s srili q qng bkt lgi nlng aqng ngm2hl, lgi nmn aqng iniiwn, muling ngm2hl, uling iiwan.. ilng beses n b aqng nsaktn, ilng beses n b aqng lumuha, at ilng beses n b aqng bumngon at muling ibingsak.. dae n rin..

.. minsn, tintnung q nlng s srili q qng bkt nga b aq iniiwan, s sobrng lungkot pkirmdm q ikm2tay q sma ng loob q.. bkt gnun, cla nkya nla aqng klimutn, bkt aq inde.. umiiyk dn b cla 2wing gbi, ns2ktn dn b cla.. kil2 p kya nla aq..

.. cguro, mrming dhln qng bkt hnggang ngyon, d q mkta ang srili q.. teka nga, aq? cnu b aq? wla nmn aqng pinngrp qng d mkhnap ng t2ngap s mga kmlian at khinaan q.. ung kya aqng unwain.. d nmn m taas n pngarap un ah, bkt pg nk2hnap aq ng h2lili s mga pngarap q, kusa clng umaalis ng wlng psbi..

.. the question is, why do i always search for an answer even if i cant find it.. it takes me much time to analyze what am i wrong about, pro gnun p dn wlng pgb2go.. in the end, i take the pain again.. p2luy p dn ang proseso eh, pg my nwla skin, h2npin q.. pg d q mhnap, mg h2np aqng kplit, p2litn.. tpus pg d nplitn, 2luyn qng kli2mutn.. then, again, the question is anu ung pg my nwla sau n d q mhnap at d q mplitn, at gus2 q nlng klimutn, ewan q b.. mlangmang, t2nggapin q nlng..

.. again, i dnt wnt 2 struggled jst 4 pains nd burdens.. i alwys ask this, why am i doing in the lonely world, i feel weak.. i nvr felt that im breathing, or mybe do i suffer isn’t enough.. how long does it takes to heal me, time will nvr say.. my m isu2gl p b aq, buhy at kmtyan, i2 nlng ang kya qng itya.. cguro, ang buhy d n aq aasang mn2lo p aq, s kmtyan q kya, my pg b2gu p.. o bgu b aq mtlo ng nk tadhana pra skin, would i b granted with all my answers to my question.. is death will b the last sacrifice..

.. ulet, analyze it.. ang buhy p2luy yn, my dumdting pro ms mrming umaalis.. nk2swa n dn minsn ang mg antay ng mg antay, d m nga alm qng my d2ting p.. np2god n aq, mlmang pgod n dn ang nk tadhana at ng aantay nlng ng huling tya ng buhy q.. qng t2ya aq cgurdong pgkswi lng ang last price ng roleta q.. qng cnung pwdng mg mhl sau, qng cnung pwng umunwa sau, qng cnung pwdng 2manggp qng anu k, at qng cnu k.. ang hirap humnap ng gnun..

-- i hve 2 go coz im hurtng 2 much.. il surrendered 4 the love isn’t enough.. il moving 4wrd whnevr this things ain’t the same as b4.. coz, i know, im sure.. theres som1 will save me, evn if im dying.. som1 who will love m evn much nd more than usual.. --