Goodbyes for October 08

.. at dahil n dn s knyang kgndhan, mdlas mpuna ang pgi2ng mkta.. mdlas m kta ang praan ng knyang pg bsa, mdlas m unwaan ng pusong ngs2lita.. gnu nga b kskit? gnu nga b k higpit ang pg k2kpit s lubid n nghi2kaos ng mpigtal.. gnu nga b i2 t2gal? hnggang mging pisi s nipis? o hnggang m22nang 2mlikod, at hbng buhy lumihis?

.. pnu nga b msu2kat ang t2g at pni2ndigan? qng pnu k msktan ng p ulit ulit? qng pnu k mdpa at muling umpishan s ib2 ang mga pngarap m? oh qng pnu k bumngon at ipkita n kya m.. ewn q, aq? nsktan aq, p ulit ulit? oo.. nbigo aq at umsa, ilang beses? d q msbi.. nsugtan? puro peklat pro tpus ng msktan.. nghi2lom b? mtgal eh.. isang taon? dlwa, tatlo? oh hbng buhy? cguro, kc d m ms2bing 2nay n pg ibig un if both of u will end up bitter.. db nga kya m sha minhl kc mhl m sha, in 1st place kht keln ang tintwag n pg ibig d nk2 skit.. tao lng ang problema, kya i2 ang nr2mdman ng mga taong umiibig..

.. aq? yah!! it was fresh p ng huling msktan aq.. actually i been her friend, i been her bestfriend, nd at the same time i been her suitor.. kaibigan? bestfriend? at manli2gaw? in that sequence, bkt gnun? d nya p dn m iwan ung nkraan nya.. grbe, i crave for almost a year sunduin sya, ihatid sya, nd then i end up facing the wall, nk tingala at ngh2nap ng lugar pra pg blingan ng atensyon.. umiyak k, kulng k s dsal, anu p? d q alm oh gnun lng tlga, mshdong m ilap ang pgibig pra skin.. this isnt the sound of suffering i know..

.. nd i been blessed, kc mrunong aqng mgmhl.. cguro gnun nlng, s dae ng ngwa q tingin q im more than what she gaves me, though it was pain.. this was the road she cross, because the man she use to know don’t feel any more..

.. no time to think about what she’ve done.. i have a way not at the dark no im not.. in end of ages, im giving up on giving it up.. yet it was so dark, i can no longer see.. but i can go home.. again.. it was no coming back for more.. eh anu qng indi nging tau? eh anu qng pngarp nlng ktng mksma? eh anu qng d 22o ang mga ykap at halik pra sau? kc skin.. bilng l2ki, pngarp ktng mksma kht sndli s aking buhy.. at least qng skling mg xpired aq, hnda aq.. pypa aqng mw2la, pypa aqng li2san.. teka nga, sdae ng nsbi q, anu nga bng np 2nyan m?

.. i learn how to love, nd to have pain.. i learn how to remember, nd yet how to forget.. my death couldn’t be useless, xcept qng iicpn qng that feelings died for nothing..

.. d q n kailngn antyin ang 08 october 2009 pra s aniversary, d q n dn aantyin ang last gf q ngyong mg 22yrs old n aq this november.. now i decide to leave not in the wrong side, by giving up.. gnun nga b kskit? gnun p dn b k higpit? ang lubid, mlpit nb tlga m putol? oh pigtal n i2 bgu k bumlik s 2nay n buhay..